My reasons for being absent: life.

around the middle of June i'll have actual artwork instead of photographs. i promise.

It seems like...almost everything I own now always has a low battery: my cell phone...my camera...my laptop...my cd player...everything. it gets pretty annoying...and theres only so many AA batteries in my house.

I rarely come on here anymore. it's rather sad. i've become so busy at school and after school and everywhere. i've been living at my boyfriend's house almost every weekend or yelling at people. and i have recently been going to the mall again legally since i'm done my probation. =]

but i'm still doing service work. i did my thirty hours at this place called Tri-State Bird Rescue, where i help take care of injured birds and clean out their cages and sometimes hold them. it's rather fun.

for a while all that i was doing was playing piano and writing poems or songs. since i acquired from my mom her old laptop i type everything up, and since i really understood my feelings about my last relationship...where he used the "fuck and dump" routine...i've been...a bit more creative, and i'm happy now =]
very happy.

Ok, so maybe you don't have to, but i feel that you should, because im coming back to you all right now.
i've been in remission, or not here because back in october/september my camera got stolen, as i may have said before, so i've had no way of putting things on here. but my sister may sell her old camera to me since she got a new one, or i may save up money to get another.
but until then i have to rely on other peoples cameras and their reliability to send me the pictures and weed out the bad ones and find the good ones.
but since may, i've been struggling to get someone to take a group picture of me and my love, jonny boy, because i have a poem i wrote about him back when i was feeling guilty because of some things. I wish i could change my name, because i dont like to be brought down by people, i've changed my pseudonym to "grey dove," because my friend has 4 angels, and i'm his angel with golden hair. but, i'm not, i'm nowhere near the status of angel, i'm imperfect, "grey dove." dont question my theory, because i know what i'm talking about, please.
it's always that dark side of people that has everyone questioning. i just want to say to certain people, though they will never see this i hope, that i'm not theres to control, i'm not living their life, i'm living mine. maybe my life isn't as "fucked up" as they think. i'm happy with my life, just because you're not happy with your own and it effects mine isn't my problem. i'm not trying to impress you, i'm living.

it's such a beautiful day, i might go out and take pictures of my thinking place, so beautiful, the corner of a huge field...i go there almost every day, cause i can't walk through the woods anymore, it was my scapegoat, and theres stuff there i can't see anymore.

yeah, im back again
this is going to be short so
i have 2 new submissions
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omg i havent been on this for the longest time! i miss everyone!!! haha but yeah...i have fun news...theres this guy...named zack...and i kissed him...and hehehe hes supposed to ask me out on tuesday! and.....TOMORROW'S MY BIRTHDAY! WOO GO ME! ILL BE 15!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH YEAH! CONGRATULATE ME! I GOT BALLOONS...but yeah...im sorry...but im erasing all the deviations and comments and stuff i got and im starting new...but ill take a quick breeze through the messages and stuff....so im so sorry....but yeah i wont be able to submit anything so....im sorry